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why things are never easy ):

The more I stare at the form, the more moody and depressed I get.  Now i'm like competing with the whole of Singapore. What if they're not going to short-list me for interview. What if i put in all my hopes, but I still don't get it in the end. I'll probably coop myself at home and cry for a week or so. I need to thrash away those negative thoughts but it just keep hanging up there. I really want it, but can i do it?

people always say, "If you never try, you'll never know your ability."

but I am scared of failure, especially on things that I really yearn for. ):

I tried to change, but I failed to. 

And now I can't differentiate if thats really what I want, or am I just running away from everything.

why things are never easy ):

The more I stare at the form, the more moody and depressed I get.  Now i'm like competing with the whole of Singapore. What if they're not going to short-list me for interview. What if i put in all my hopes, but I still don't get it in the end. I'll probably coop myself at home and cry for a week or so. I need to thrash away those negative thoughts but it just keep hanging up there. I really want it, but can i do it?

people always say, "If you never try, you'll never know your ability."

but I am scared of failure, especially on things that I really yearn for. ):

I tried to change, but I failed to. 

And now I can't differentiate if thats really what I want, or am I just running away from everything.