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 the scholarship that is not mine Everyone has been asking me the same questions over and over again. "So has any company call you yet?" Oh well, apparently none did and i am not expecting any calls in the future either. I knew I wouldn't receive any call from any of them when they have contacted almost every single soul I know. I knew perfectly there isn't a second batch because there isn't like a hundred applicants applying for that scholarship. Of course i'm disappointed initially because i'm a human after all. When everyone wondered why I'm not shortlisted, i hope I know why too. I got moody, I felt bad, I feel like screaming because not being shortlisted felt as if you failed your exam terribly. "No, no one called me yet" I don't know how many freaking times have i repeated this sentence. People tried to console, but you know, the more you console the more you're making me thinking back - I'm not shortlisted. I have been moody over that weekend, but i've thought through it all. Since I wasn't very keen on the scholarship initially as I've already have other plans after my graduation, it shouldn't affect me that much. What is mine, will be mine eventually. Since its not mine, there must be a reason. What's the reason, it doesn't matter to me anymore. Yes, i've got no scholarship. $30,000 is gone. so what! It doesn't mean a thing to me right now, really. Though i missed the thought of having $30,000 and sponsoring a trip for the family over to Japan. I know the parents wants to visit there again, and the stupid brother is jealous of me. =D In life, you gain some and you lose some. I may have lose this round but there's probably something better waiting for me. If you asked me would I be happy if i got the scholarship eventually? Yes, because of the money. But No, because thats not what i want to do ultimately. ______________________________________________________________________________ when you realised someone is making use of you, would you still go to the extent to help the person like you usually do? would you still believe that the relationship between both of you is true? Labels: scholarship, school  |
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the scholarship that is not mine
